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Crystal Shawanda Lyrics – You Can Let Go Wind blowin’ on my...

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 13:47:43 -0500

Crystal Shawanda Lyrics – You Can Let Go

Wind blowin’ on my face
Sidewalk flyin’ beneath my bike
A five year-old’s first taste
Of what freedom’s really like
He was runnin’ right beside me
His hand holdin’ on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

Chorus
You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I’m ready
To do this on my own
It’s still .. it still feels .. a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go

I was standin’ at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one I’ve been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife
When the preacher asked,
‘Who gives this woman?’
Daddy’s eyes filled up with tears
He kept holdin’ tightly to my arm
‘Till I whispered in his ear

It was killin’ me to see
The strongest man I ever knew
Wastin’ away to nothin’
In that hospital room
‘You know he’s only hangin’ on for you’
That’s what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breakin’
As I crawled up in his bed, and said

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Your little girl is ready
To do this on my own
It’s gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I’ll be ok now, Daddy
You can let go
You can let go

DEAR RASCAL FLATTS:

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 13:30:35 -0500

getyourjacketon:

My dad and I have an inside thing with one of your songs. We played it over & over while driving on a highway in Florida. I was driving my grandpa’s Subaru (the old person kind, not the lame racing kid kind) and my dad was teaching me how to drive on a highway not like a girl. Anyway, we sang your song repeatedly. A few Christmases ago he gave me your cd and printed out the lyrics from “our song” from azlyrics.com. This will be the song I dance to at my wedding with pops. I thought I could pick up some tickets to a concert in NJ, NY, or PA for Christmas for the two of us. Though we have our issues, we love each other, and he would totally dig that gift. Thing is, you’re only playing University Park which is FAR. We would probably make the drive, but it makes me nervous still. Play closer. We need you bad over here in Dirty Jersey.

xoxo,

a country girl at heart forever & always.

I say buy the tickets darling. Their concerts are amazing. I drove two hours to see them and it was worth every penny and every mile through the rain.

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Fri, 11 Dec 2009 11:01:24 -0500

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1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 10:05:44 -0500

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (1 Corinthians 13: 4-7)

I know that this is one of the most known passages - but I’ve never understood it until now. I woke up this morning and this is the first thing I thought of. Before it was just a bunch of words that spoke nothing to me, because I did not know love or felt love like I should have; the way love should always feel like. I think God is trying to restore the faith that I am currently lacking.

There is not much that is going “right” in my life at this point. At least I have a few things (more like people) to help me stay strong as I possibly can. I am blessed with amazing people. There were a few problems in some of the relationships with my family, friends, and with the boyfriend — but patience, honesty and understanding were the medicine that cured it all. If you want something to work, you have to make it work. Nothing in life comes easy. I gotta make this work. I gotta make this work. I gotta make this work.

A Day Off

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 13:06:45 -0500

I call myself a documenter because I take pictures of everything that goes on in my life. Especially when going on dates or just hanging out with some friends. I’m usually all about pictures and capturing the smiles. I do this because sometimes I forget how happiness feels like, so I always look back to be reminded, but last night… I was too busy living in the moment and not behind my camera.

Last night I picked up Anna from work and watched Glee on my bed while eating bean dip with pita chips. It just feels so good to reunite and spend time with the people/person who matters. I’ve missed this. I’ve missed having my house be the place to be because all my friends felt comfortable here and that I’d cook for them. As I was making sammiches for Anna she said, “just like old times”.

I’m so tired of people pushing people away before they push themselves away from me. I’ve got good people in my life, who’ll be there. I should just let them be. Promise. I’ll be better. Promise. I promise to not sulk as often. I promise. I promise I’ll try.

I want that bed. (via sweethomestyle)

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 01:47:05 -0500

I want that bed. (via sweethomestyle)

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Wed, 09 Dec 2009 00:31:01 -0500

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"Out of the corner of one eye, I could see my mother. Out of the corner of the other eye, I could see..."

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:53:04 -0500

“Out of the corner of one eye, I could see my mother. Out of the corner of the other eye, I could see her shadow on the wall, cast there by the lamplight. It was a big and solid shadow, and it looked so much like my mother that I became frigthened. For I could not be sure whether for the rest of my life I would be able to tell when it was really my mother and when it was really her shadow standing between me and the rest of the world”

- Jamaica Kincaid, Annie John (1983)

"An individual doesn’t get cancer, a family does."

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 23:29:59 -0500

“An individual doesn’t get cancer, a family does.”

- Terry Tempest Williams, Refuge (1991)

It Won't

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 18:02:37 -0500

There should be boundaries in our relationship.

I am your daughter.

I am not your friend.

I am not the one you should run to with every problem you face.

Yes. Family is suppose to stick together.

But, I can’t pick sides.

I can’t carry the world on my shoulders.

I can’t have you depending on me for every little thing.

It’s as if you can’t do anything by yourself.

The thing that hurts is… that you know all this.

You know how much I can take.

You’re being selfish.

You use my arms for hugs.

You use my ears for your complaints and struggles.

You use my time to get what you need to get done.

You have used every little ounce of hope that things will get better.

It won’t.

"There is a difference between depression and sorrow - sorrowful, you are in great trouble because..."

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 16:06:00 -0500

“There is a difference between depression and sorrow - sorrowful, you are in great trouble because something matters so much; depressed, you are miserable because nothing really matters.”

- J.E Buc krose, “Depression,” What I Have Gathered (1923)

shelikestodance:(via fashionising)

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 14:20:41 -0500

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I do

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 02:19:28 -0500

I haven’t done my best.

I give up after one try.

Sometimes nothing and everything matters at the same time.

The unknown seems more appealing than the now.

I don’t know what to do.

I’d give it all up, including you.

Heart vs. head.

Head vs. heart.

No matter who versus who…

In the end all I need is a brand new start.

One day at a time.

I try to breathe.

Little less thinking.

More feeling.

I’ll do right by me for you.

No matter how much I don’t think I need you…

I do.

"Ambition, old as mankind, the immemorial weakness of the strong."

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 21:33:16 -0500

“Ambition, old as mankind, the immemorial weakness of the strong.”

- Vita Sackville-West

"I love my past. I love my present. I’m not ashamed of what I’ve had, and I’m not..."

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 17:40:38 -0500

“I love my past. I love my present. I’m not ashamed of what I’ve had, and I’m not sad because I have it no longer.”

- Collette, The Last of Cherie (1926)

Bokeh Effects in Web Design

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 16:00:37 -0500

Bokeh Effects in Web Design:

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love bokeh!

Billy Idol - Dancing With Myself… Trying to get into the...

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 15:52:13 -0500

Billy Idol - Dancing With Myself…

Trying to get into the mood for work by playing this full blast.

99 problems (via spareunderthemat)(via stammy)

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 13:33:32 -0500

99 problems (via spareunderthemat)(via stammy)

I've got that sweet wanderlust running through my veins.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 02:30:00 -0500

Only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I will explore every God given road to my internal peace.

I’ve tried. (via staree)

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 01:04:00 -0500

I’ve tried. (via staree)